I shouldn’t be here. I’ll go.

I used to think adults older than 40 have lived a full life. Older people dying never effected me the way a young person has. But seeing that my grandmother is ONLY 65, and will be gone in a couple months is fucking terrible. It will never sit right with me. I will never think she experienced it all. Whatever I can do to make her life as full as if ever has been, I fucking will. We’re fighting with you.

Today hurts. Today I found out news I never wanted to hear. I wanted you to beat cancer for the second time. I wanted you to see my wedding. I wanted you to see my kids grow up. I wanted you there for all of it and now I’ll be lucky to see you 6 months from now. Death is inevitable but the death of a loved one hurts the most. I am so sorry life dealt you this hand. We love you IMMENSELY. Every turtle, the color purple, sewing, everything will remind me of you. You are an amazing woman, I am rooting for you to live forever. And if this life takes you from us, know you will be taken everywhere we go. I’m our hearts, minds, and the world will be reminded. Your presence is a blessing. I fucking love you .

I’m drunk n these two arms r for you

getting my nose pierced rn
It’s Fucking lit

I’d like to watch the sunrise and get breakfast, just not alone.